Here I Am I Think

Leave my dreams
Leave my mind
Leave me be
Leave me peace

Almost hidden out of view
Almost missed your influence
Almost looked right past the truth
Almost touched bliss (miss)
An ignorant fool

I saw you there last night
The echoes captured come morn’
A reverberation of every sleep (slip)
Many masks are used to cover your face (farce)
An ignorant fool
A wound up spool

A lurker stuck in parts unknown
Haunting frustrating presence (prescience)
Illusive maya to change my gaze (glaze)
All hazy visions granted a wild goose chase (phase)
An ignorant fool
A wound up spool
A mindless tool

Dislodge thine essence from my place (space)
Disgusting beast stay away from slumber (blunder)
Let me build my pure and calming paradise (parasite)
Unbind yourself keep those tendrils back (black)
An ignorant fool
A wound up spool
A mindless tool
A broken back mule


Potential energy courses through
Things that I myself could do
A could be this and could be that
Not quite everything
Can’t be nothing

The things to do and things that weren’t
Ripping, tearing, growing alert
Unconscious desires twirling apart
And what if that underworld was not there
What if those thinkless thoughts weren’t here

What would become and what would be
If unknown unspoken worlds abandoned me
Would there be anything left outside
Would something else become of me
What if there isn’t really anything to be

These puzzle pieces anoint my hand
Many lost and missing
Multiple puzzles from multiple planes
All these pieces I cannot reclaim
Clip them flip them start all over

On the flipside another view
They don’t seem to match leaving me askew
How can they fit together in truth
Isn’t my mind finally through
Pieces missing pieces here

Which ones are more and which are less
Mesh together the known and whats left
They twist and change a laughing face
A puzzle begging to be solved
The puzzle constantly morphs and unfolds


A moving presence in between worlds
It can’t decide where to go
Without meaning and without goal
Hopelessly lost into itself it goes
What became and what was sane
How did it happen what happened
What changed how shifted
A cookie cutter it resisted
The gray drab world sucking hisses
Fleeing running keep away
What happens when its time to hit the hay

I’ll tell you what and I’ll tell you true
Things happen unknown to you
A world that grows and dies in you
Infected places go black and blue
Bruised by me and bruised by you
A place that’s evolving and sighing
Its splitting tearing itself apart
Desperately accommodates tiring queues
An explosion here and implosion there
Warped and frazzled fuelled by fears

Calm down cool off my dear
Things can still be repaired
A remedy waiting somewhere near
Moisture mould and drippling tap
A curing and healing life’s salvation
To ease your brain of any tension
Leading your head to great elation
Not to hide but defeating beasts unmentioned
I can’t see but I can feel the key
Already I know its out of reach


A focus lost into heaving sigh
Introspection turned into fantastical
A bleached porcine at a festival
Distraction in place to hide the strife
Hasn’t it been the same all your life